dear 16 year old self,
you sucked. but thats ok. everyone does when they start out. but still. it was hard to go through all of that. Don't blame yourself for you're parents problems. Dont think of yourself as a burden to others. because you're not. in the next four years yer gonna be mad, because you will turn out to be totally gay. And you will attempt to take your own life. you will fail, (im talking to you, duh) and put all of this behind you. you're still not completely comfortable, but you are out to a lot of friends. you will be getting your degree in 2014. it was 2013, and then i dropped a class. so....shit happens. You've been unmotivated and uninspired. But slowly coming back.
Thanks for always asking "why?". It pissed dad off but for the right reasons. You think for yourself now. And make judgements based not on what people told you, but what you've experienced yourself. Life is so much better.
You give up on that stupid comic of yours. two years later, exciting story- you will be caught drawing porn. And guess what? dad doesn't say a THING. so you keep going. and later you'll find this is so much fun.
your parents are in denial.
your siblings are scared of you
and you have all the support you'll ever need in your friends.
you and mark eventually reconcile with each other, though you dont see each other often. but when you do, its like we'd never fought at all.
"I have something to tell you, bud"
"dont worry, i'm not a virgin either"
"that wasn't what i was going to tell you but thanks for telling me. im gay "
"oh.......well i guess its ok i mean. its your life."
"so your ok with it?"
"yeh."
".......dicks"
"piss"
"vagina"
"bestiest for 5EVER."
you and boys learn to get along. evidently. now your best friends are boys. Let's just say you've calmed down.
all in all, your doing ok. its shitty. but your doing ok.
ps- you keep denying it, but you're hearts still in pieces. you havent spoken to haley in years.
you miss her.
but you're scared to talk to her.
better get over it. >> lets see what another 3 years does.
love you,
Alvvie.